Photos by Zeno Gill
Occupation: Writer/ Performer/ Day-Job Juggler
Tell us about yourself in under 100 words:
First of all, I’m always at a loss on how to reply to this question. I guess the basics are: I’m a California-born, New York-based writer and actor. I have a deep love for film, TV, comedy, and comics, and hope to eventually make a living in any/all of the above. I have a cat named Pepper who loves avocado, attend San Diego Comic-Con every year, and would happily ride roller coasters every day, if I could. I also love to cook. (And eat. And drink.)
What is something about you that most people don’t know?
I spent about seven years practicing martial arts as a child; I stopped in high school because it wasn’t really possible to go to my studio and participate in performing arts at school. It’s been ten years since I stopped, so most of my friends have no idea I know karate unless I tell them.
When you look in the mirror what do you see?
A person who took a long time for me to get to know and appreciate, but ultimately a face and body that belongs to me, and reflects who I am.
What is the most amazing thing your body has done for you?
My body has always given me an incredible rush of adrenaline when I perform, or when I hear people laugh at something I’ve written; it helps me remember I’m alive, and that I should strive for that sort of experience as much as possible.
What are your “Not Enough” feelings? Those thoughts that sometimes sneak into your mind that come from insecurities?
I’m not particularly fit or strong, and I feel that- it’s different from a “not thin enough” (which I also have, sometimes) feeling; it’s more about health and ability than anything else. I’ve struggled with weight and body image a lot in the past; that still comes up, but it’s more an occasional thing than a constant one.
If you could look like someone else who would it be? If offered the chance to look like them instead of yourself for the rest of your life would you take it?
I used to wish I had a taller, thinner body; I’ve always found androgyny really beautiful and used to wish my own body was more like that. However, I haven’t wished that in a long time- though it would be cool to look like Keira Knightly for a day, for kicks.
If you could change one thing about the world that would give you more confidence what would it be?
I’d create actual, worldwide equality for all sexes/ gender identifications. I’d hope this would result in a world where I don’t have to fear being cat-called or leered at when wearing weather-appropriate clothes, and one where there were more female world leaders and CEOs. That kind of environment would hopefully enable all women including myself to feel more confident, and would be a win for more marginalized groups, such as trans women of color.
If you could give one message to women of the world what would it be?
I’m going to thieve a quote from Lucille Ball, because it’s what I always go to when I’m feeling down on myself: “Love yourself first and everything else falls into line. You really have to love yourself to get anything done in this world.”